thank you SL, mia, ely, jack, mush, elfe, renuka, siti, afzal, amin, jal, wani, gazel. (i pray i left no one out) you're the best partners i can wish for!! thank you for making my day!! i have so much love for all of you!! haha..and not even a fleshy posterior can make a dent in my happy bubble today!! (: really really thank you!!! thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
o malley baby, you're avoiding me. it's sad, cos i miss the carefree conversations we had, and the silly nonsense we talked about, stupid arguments over stupid things, and the amount of trust i have in you, that i may confide freely and with no fear about everything and anything on my mind (except you and i of course, that's an issue i'd never broach). maybe you need time away from me, i respect that, but please don't take too long, and just go back to being one of the greatest friends i have, and probably ever will have. i do miss you. ely asked why i won't give you a chance. i told her cos you're too precious to have to deal with my messed up life. that's partly true. it's mostly cos i can't commit, not even to you. and i can't tear myself from the comfort of your friendship. i know i'm selfish.
i want to go windsurfing and take up wakeboarding lessons. i haven't even been to the beach in quite awhile. so sad!
anyways, today my body is feeling the effects of too much alcohol and too much caffeine. feel half dead.
today i started talking to charlene again.
today i feel especially messed up, and i think i'm gonna spend time in bed musing my life, wondering abt stuff, and sorting through the many many many things in my mind. bah!
